Feel depression.

When I started college, I thought it would be easy to find an internship or a full-time job by the time I reached the later semesters. But my assumptions were always wrong, and I was wrong about this too.

The job market is very competitive now, especially for juniors without any experience. I think it’s because of the tech winter and the increasing implementation of AI agents. The demand for human developers is much smaller.

All of these problems make me feel depressed. I’m in my sixth semester and about to write the draft for my final project proposal, but I don’t have the energy. I need to do an internship, but it’s very hard to find IT companies near my parents’ house, because I want to minimize expenses.

This depression makes me regret going to college. I keep asking why I was born and have to live in such hard times. Why did I choose computer science? I don’t feel good about myself, and I worry the next few years will be even harder. I feel sad.